Archive | January 13, 2014

Redirect

So you are having a bad day.  Now its starting to snowball into an awful day.  Work was bad but, your night class was worse.  Then you got home and now your boyfriend wants to argue about something dumb.  What do you do?  Redirect!  I was talking to my friends this weekend and seems that collectively, 2013 sucked.  We all had things happen in our lives that made us so look forward to 2014.  Lets use me for example.  I lost my only child in 2013 suddenly.  I spent most of the year just trying to grieve my loss and figure out how to begin my new life.  Obviously, I have many emotions and thoughts surrounding her death.  I can start off just missing her, then I’ll cry that I can’t talk to her again.  Then I’ll start thinking of things I wanted us to do or I wanted for her life.  By the time I get to this thought, I’m sad and feeling bad.  Here’s where the redirect comes in.  I have to say, yes, I miss her, but she’s doing better than I am in heaven.  Thank God he allowed me to spend as much time with her as I did.  I can talk to her again, just now, in a different way.  I can tell her about the things I’m doing with my nonprofit and how I’m trying daily to honor her spirit and help other young adults with mental health issues.  I can think of all the places I wanted to go with her and now focus on actually going.  I can leave something of hers there and tell her my vision of it.  I can try to live my life better each day and prepare my soul so when its time we can be together again!  see, I’m already feeling better and all I did was redirect! 

Today’s blog is dedicated to Tiffinae and Leah.  Thanks for listening and helping me learn to redirect!

This entry was posted on January 13, 2014. 1 Comment